So the past couple of days have not been fun...I don't know what it is but I've gotten worse. I thought I was finally starting to get a little better, but it's been everything in my not to cry. Instead, I just sigh about a thousand times a day. All I feel like doing, again, is calling Erik and saying hi to him...yes, I know this is a bad idea. But I just miss him that much... But what good would this really do me?
Honestly, probably nothing...he'll still feel the need to be on his own. He'll still need his 'space' and I'll still be left completely heartbroken. I just want to feel like a normal, happy woman again. Is that really too much to ask?!
I stumbled upon this nifty little information on search of pictures...There is an actual heart affliction that some doctors and scientists believe is caused by a broken heart. According to doctors at John Hopkins, extreme and sudden emotional distress can result in heart muscle weakness, often resembling the weakness caused by a heart attack. This is, scientifically, called stress cardiomyopathy, but commonly known as "broken heart" syndrome.
This syndrome is caused by a surge of adrenaline and other stress hormones that temporarily "stun" the heart. The good thing here is that the damage is not permanent! To read the article from John Hopkins, follow this link:
Not gonna lie...this explains a lot of the pains I was having initially...